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Beethoven, or lighter pieces.
"And as he spoke, he looked at me. It was all so natural, so simple, that
there was absolutely nothing to be said against it. And at the same time
I saw, I was sure, that it was false, that they were in a conspiracy to
deceive me.
"
One of the most torturing situations for the jealous (and in our social
life everybody is jealous) are those social conditions which allow
a very great and dangerous intimacy between a man and a woman under
certain pretexts. One must make himself the laughing stock of everybody,
if he desires to prevent associations in the ball-room, the intimacy
of doctors with their patients, the familiarity of art occupations, and
especially of music. In order that people may occupy themselves together
with the noblest art, music, a certain intimacy is necessary, in which
there is nothing blameworthy. Only a jealous fool of a husband can have
anything to say against it. A husband should not have such thoughts,
and especially should not thrust his nose into these affairs, or prevent
them. And yet, everybody knows that precisely in these occupations,
especially in music, many adulteries originate in our society.
"I had evidently embarrassed them, because for some time I was unable
to say anything. I was like a bottle suddenly turned upside down, from
which the water does not run because it is too full. I wanted to insult
the man, and to drive him away, but I could do nothing of the kind.
On the contrary, I felt that I was disturbing them, and that it was my
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